HELLO beautiful people and beautiful sunset this session was!!! Do you see those red rocks?! They were showing off that night we explored the creek and enjoyed the sunset. Jessica grew up in Arizona, born and raised but decided to go south for college. Tanner is homegrown southern man from South Carolina! While visiting family out here Jessica really wanted some photos of them two in Sedona for their house. Little did she know Tanner had a surprise at the end. Jessica is this cute, petite, gorgeous woman that has kindness in her eyes. Tanner is like your older brother who wants to watch out for you and would help anyone when they need it. Their love is sweet and what they have between them is this kind of friendship we all dream of.
Now even though Jessica had no idea the proposal was going to happen, she planned a sunset couples session. Tanner didn’t even tell me it was going to happen! We all laughed a lot while we got to know each other and took a walk down to the creek. We were racing back up to the top to grab the last bit of light before then sun went down when Tanner gets down on one knee! He got nervous when I said “oh no! Gotta hurry because we are loosing light fast”. She was SO SHOCKED, said YES, and did a little happy dance. It’s one of those moments you won’t forget. No matter how many proposals I see, they never get old, they are all beautiful and intimate, and I feel honored I get to be there at that moment.
Knoxville, Tennesse is where Crescent Bend manor resides with it’s five tier fountain gardens. Tulips run wild and free along the paths and beds. Doug and Megan shared their love in front of 120 of their closest friends and family in the cool breeze of a Saturday afternoon. I photographed their engagement session back in December in Sedona when they came for a little vacation. Doug and Megan met in chiropractic school in Chicago. They are goofy together, madly in love with each other, and crazy about their families. And oh boy was it a beautiful family wedding! The weekend was filled with a lot of food, catching up, and celebrating.
With five junior bridesmaids and two flower girls getting ready was a ball. They were dancing around with such delight of being in their big cousins wedding! Doug’s groomsmen were mostly friends growing up and his brother. They were some of the goofiest bunch I’ve been around to say the least! Megan’s , younger brother, Justin officiated the wedding with both sets of parents on either side gazing with tears in their eyes of joy. This wedding was classy and elegant. The reception was on the top tier below the manor set with Easter theme garden party. It being Easter weekend family traveled to celebrate not only their wedding but also a holiday together. The speeches were heartfelt and funny, the dancing was a hoot, and the sparkler send off was the best way to end a party like this one!
People warned me about the first couple years of starting your own business. I come from a long line of small and large business owners. From top three printers in the nation,to small town water bed sellers, to home therapy jewelry makers. My family has a thing for entrepreneurship. I was bound to follow in my family legacy whether I planned it or not. Business is in our blood. And my first experience of selling a product was in 4th grade, the classic middle school obsession, hemp bracelets. You know the ones where you get to create a pattern and add beads or color string. Whatever you wanted, I could make. They were all the rage and the kids at my school actually bought them! Sooner to later the rage died down so I was on to my next business endeavor, selling newspapers. In the middle of my 5th grade year I run with a new dream, to be a journalist. Me and a friend made the entire 20 page newspaper called “the Fifth Grade Times” filled with interviews about why the boys wouldn’t let the girls play football on the playground, crossword puzzles with our recent words from the spelling test , and cartoons made by up in coming 5th grade artists. But the best of them all was my 6th grade knitting company called “the Yaya Knitters”. Where I got that name to this day I don’t know but, I sold my scarves and hats in an actual store in town. At that age I had no ideafifteen years later I would run a small business based on my talent of photography. Truly I thought I would be on some boat I built myself in the middle of the ocean going to the next country to preach the gospel. Literally – my dream starting at age 10.
But business is in my blood and work has always come to me without me searching out for it. Somewhere deep down I knew I couldn’t run from something so good and natural but I struggled all of high school, college, and the last three years post grad trying to figure out what the heck I want to do with my life.
I had one of those “oh my gosh I’m gonna remember this forever” moments when I realized, why am I constantly trying to search for a job or calling instead of looking to see what I’m already naturally gifted at and giving 110% to it?
So that I did last year!
Welcome to my first (messy, anxious driven, pretty fun) year of going full time freelance wedding photography. If you have interacted with me this last year, I’m sorry if I was tired, stressed, or anxious every time.. I am really working on it. That’s why I went to Hawaii, for two months. Although this job is fun and the lifestyle is ideal, it’s not easy. And I was turning into this woman I didn’t enjoy being around. If I may be so vulnerable to share I struggled with anxiety in ways I’ve never experienced in my life. I saw a therapist regularly and got put on anti- anxiety meds which I’m no longer struggling with due to…. well Hawaii. (I’m not kidding read this blog here https://hannahrosegray.com/2017/03/be-all-there/ ) In general Hawaii did good things for me and my brain! This last year was the first time I searched out help for my ADD, a condition my doctors were shocked how I made it through college without help. After brain scans we learned my brain waves work at a rate 80% of my day in dream land. Let’s just say it takes me twice, sometimes three times, as long to get anything done. I either zone out, get bored and move on to the next task without finishing the first, and mostly zone out into dream land. If you need help talking about your dreams, goals, or what makes you come alive I’m your girl. But if you need help with taxes, insurance, website design, client emails, or editing, you may need to go see someone else cause i’m still working on it.
I didn’t have boundaries between business and personal life. I felt guilty if I took a day off. I was able to attend church once within a five month span, so saw my friends very very minimal. And I had so many meltdowns, I felt like I was back in Junior year of college juggling 6 classes and a job. Let’s call a spade a spade here, I was unhealthy and wasn’t taking care of myself.
I never said I was good at business, I just said it was in my blood.
So heres to a year of new learnings, of being determined, of being self disciplined. Here is to a year of dream setting and achieving, to figuring out small business taxes, of shooting 18 weddings, 90 sessions and editing them all myself. Here is to a year of progress because that is all I can ask of myself. If you are hard on yourself for not achieving enough, doing enough, being enough, I urge you to do what you are good at not what others are doing. I picked that one up from Katelyn James ( a professional wedding photographer and educator). What if we all did what we were naturally talented at, where our gifting lie, or our dreams come true? Instead of comparing ourselves because we don’t look like all the other instagramers on social media or our dreams aren’t “big enough” like what you perceive everyone else to be?
It’s ok to dream small. No one has ever told me that! But I tell that to myself. It’s within the small dreams that the big ones arise. I believe my small dreams are just as important and will lead me to my big ones:
1.Owning three goats and making goats milk lotion and soap to give to my friends as gifts
2. Making everyone I interact with feel incredibly important by looking them in the eye not looking at my phone
3. Hosting weekly dinners where I get to cook for my friends
Guys, REALLY simple/ small dreams.
Sure they might not make a big difference like my other dreams to start a nonprofit after school where kids who underwent or undergoing trauma can come learn how to cook, build things, grow food, play with animals, and make art but…they are helping me to get there to the big ones.
YOUR SMALL DREAMS MATTER. Dreaming is good for the brain.
All of that to say, it’s ok if you don’t have it all figured out. If you don’t have all the answers. If you like business but you don’t know what the heck you are doing with yours. I hope I can be a useful resource for others starting out their business, not just wedding photography. I don’t know where I would be without the encouraging voices from across the country through books, podcasts, and blogs. Here are a few I TRUST and are obsessed with.
These are the books that influenced me:
The Essentialist -Greg McKeown (literally my bible this last year)
Daring Greatly- Brene Brown (anything by her honestly.amazing)
Big Magic – Elizabeth Gilbert (oh.my.gosh).
Walking on Water- ( I have read it over and over and over again)
Blink – Malcolm Gladwell
Tribe- Seth Godin
The School of Greatness- Lewis Howes
These are the podcast that helped me gain knowledge :
On a cold wintery afternoon Chelsea’s sister tricked her into coming along for their family session. She has two new twin little girls and needed the extra help during the session. Chelsea walks up with her sisters family completely unaware her boyfriend is hiding behind some trees around the corner. We set the family up and do some fun shots than I ask why not do a sister shot. They get themselves all ready and up comes Kyle with their two dogs running in front of him with a rose and dog tag that says “will you marry my daddy”? She FREAKS out and is SO surprised. He says some cute things and gets down on one knee. It was a beautiful proposal with her family there. We had a short engagement session afterwards and they than went to a surprise family engagement party afterwards.
Sedona, Arizona…where the sun is warm and the desert runs wild. These two were a hoot to hang out with for our shoot. We laughed the entire time!! They even brought some music along for us to dance to. My favorite part of my job is to meet these kind of people. The wildly fun random people I would have not otherwise have met. They are getting married in Mexico for a destination wedding and HELLO it will be beautiful. These two fit like a glove. He is goofy and she is creative. They both are extroverted and outgoing. Let’s do it again guys, cause we had a ball.
I met these two 6 years ago working at Beulah Beach summer camp on Lake Erie. All summer I knew they liked each other, even though they tried so hard to play it off as if they were just friends. Ya right! Their love grew out of a deep friendship into a romance that will last their whole life.
Down by a winter creek, in the beautiful Colorado Springs, the two promised their lives to each other. First and for most to always be best friends. With their closest friends and family gathered they laughed and cried together while the sun came up for a morning wedding. The sun was delighted to see these two delighting in each other.